It All Comes Down To...Friday, November 13, 2015
Oh my, it's been months since I last logged in to my account to actually blog! I already even came to a point I don't even know what to write on my blog despite having the urge to do so. I'm currently finding my zone again by just typing whatever right now, haha. So... it's the end of the semester!
That semester felt like one hell of a year for me -- a lot to be learned, a lot to be taken note of. Every encounter from mentors, students, friends, acquaintances, and even patients... there's a lot to really learn. From the books, transes, exam reinforcers, and lecturers to the actual duties to go to ward beds and interview patients and having a relearning through the insights of our doctor advisers every after ward round. Learning is endless, so as the need for some other things...
There's an endless amount of fight-or-flight throughout the semester. Those times when I study the night before then all of a sudden hear my mom call out my name at 6AM in the morning! That automatic going out of bed, taking a bath, eating your breakfast before you go to class panicking every single second because deym! you fell asleep the moment you held that study material last night and you only have an hour to read everything for an exam! Being "exhausted" is an understatement for medstudents, and all post-grad studs alike I guess.
Amidst the wrecking world that builds you ironically to be the person you are motivated to be, there'll be endless times you'd take a break from everything. Everything seems so interesting when you're up for procrastination! Looking at the ceiling, fixing your closet, fixing the transes to read and organizing everything before starting. All as if are rituals that are to be done before even starting!
So much has happened for a span of 5 freaking months. Toxic and fun times for 5 months. At the end of the road when life seems to crumble and question your mighty self, it all comes down to this sign of hope. That bright light of endless hope, that everything shall pass towards the good of all. So, don't lose it. Come out mighty and strong!